Seeking serenity with every breath
If I could change it, I swear I would
To be in this state…I prefer my sleep
But even sleep won’t heal a wound this deep

And I can’t stand here…
Soaking with sadness and sorrow
I promise I will feel better…maybe now, maybe tomorrow

And it’s like a possession
A room cramped up, I can barely breath
Maybe I will wake up, it’s an illusion
…Or some kind of confusion?

A tunnel so dark, I can’t get through it
I start praying and telling myself that I can do it…

Well I just want to say it to you
Straight to your face, spill it all out
I have no strength, no aim, letting it lose
Wish I could be in charge of my feelings but I can’t choose

And all I need is this answer
Time doesn’t seem to show

Where is it heading to?
How will I make it?
When will it end? Will I ever know?


FARAH.A

Do you know there is no point?
In me explaining
The sense of feeling of the wound-like a child
Falling on the ground, ice cream melted
Do you know I keep complaining?
Even though this life is a gift-I brace myself
Even though I keep planting
This thought in my head, to keep on being positive
But when negativity overtakes the positive
I don’t feel the need to lie to myself
And no, I am not okay tonight.

Do you know and experience?
The sharpness of the headache
The inner flame yet coldness
Let me ask you this…
Ever felt like there is nobody around you
In a crowded room full of people
Or 100% , beneath those stars
With just one person beside you

And you will never know
The sense of emotion of
A fresh new emptiness
Diminishing to the ground of your shoulders
But if you ever do know this
Tell me how you feel.

What kills me does not make me stronger!

Mistakes don’t make me a better person!

What brings me down does not toughen me!

What makes me question does not make me wiser!

What leaves me crying does not make me a fighter!

It does not make me think better!

Criticism will not make me achieve for the best!

What destroys me will not thicken my skin!

And if I’m pressured I don’t work harder!

I won't pretend like I listen to those phrases

I am not a fan of taking these advises

It is only a method to calm oneself

Speaking positive, but forgetting reality

I will not sit and lie to my individuality

And I don’t feel what the rest of the world feels so

The tears I cry do not make me better in a while

What burns me in two minutes, two days, in the present

Will never bring me strength, control, and power in the future!!!!